April 21, 2009
Sad
Portland Firefly is just so sad today. I think the events of this last month have finally caught up with me. It was only 31 days ago that I received my diagnosis, but it seems like I have been dealing with it now for such a long time. I only lost my hair two weeks ago, but the constant presence of having to wear a hat or a scarf makes it seem like months already —- and I have such a long time to go yet.
Arrangements are being made for my Father’s Memorial and I think that contributes to my sadness. And when I go to California for his Memorial, I will be seeing my Daughter for the first time since our fun visit to see Neil Diamond at the Hollywood Bowl. It will probably be the last time I will see my elderly Aunt. And it will probably be the last time I will see some lifelong friends, only because I don’t know how much traveling I’ll be doing in the future. My beloved Brother and his wife will be there as well. I think this will be a very special and emotional trip for me.
PS: I sat out on my patio and had some homemade chicken and rice soup and a hamspread sandwich for lunch and I feel better now.
