June 29, 2009

TV Church

Posted in Health, Life, Personal tagged chemo side effects, fatigue, Primary Peritoneal Carcinoma, Sunday church at 12:39 am by pdxfirefly

    One of the things that I like about my new Chemo schedule is the fact that I have felt well enough to go my Thursday night Bible Study.   Except for this last week.  I was just too tired to go out.   ”That’s OK”, I thought, “I should be able to attend church this Sunday.”  Well, today is Sunday and I didn’t make it to church today. 

   I got up and took my shower, then had to lay back down for another rest.  By then I realized that it was futile for me to try to go to church.  “If I am this tired”, I thought, ” My immune system is probably pretty low and I might be better off NOT being around strangers today.  Besides, I just don’t really feel like it.   I am just too fatigued.”

  So, I went into the kitchen to fix myself an easy bite to eat — just cold cereal and fresh fruit today– then I sat down and turned on the TV.  I quickly found a palatable TV minister and watched TV Church from my recliner while I ate my breakfast. 

   It was more about being fatigued than anything else.    I just feel so very tired …yet not tired enough to nap, but having the feeling of being totally drained of energy.  Even, my high powered vitalmins don’t seem to make a dent in the fatigue.   This is the type of day where I just lay around.  I try to do one or two little things and then I look for reasons to just sit in the recliner….  tired in mind and body.

    “There is a time for every season….”   This is my season for healing and being fatigued is part of that process.

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