December 18, 2009

From Hair on Out

Posted in Beauty, Health, Life, Personal tagged Cancer, chemo hair loss, hair loss, Primary Peritoneal Carcinoma at 12:39 am by pdxfirefly

   A few days ago I wrote that my head was aching and that has been known to be a precursor to my hair falling out.  I knew the signs, but since my hair has just started to grow back in, I didn’t want to believe that it would really happen a second time.  Well, I was wrong.

    Wednesday night when I was washing my hair, I kept getting hair in my mouth.  “Oh, no,” I sadly thought. “I was told by more than one person that it would most  probably fall out, but I wanted to believe that I was different.”  My head hurt so much… it is so tender that I cannot even touch my hair without my head hurting.  Imagine barley touching your hair and the dull aching  pain radiating into your head.  

   So I got out my trusty hair cutting scissors and started cutting my new 1 inch curly locks (well almost locks).  My hair fell into beautiful tiny crescents on the sink and counter.  I have never had curly hair before and I really hated to cut it off.  I was after all just starting to get used to it and now I had to cut it off.

  The reason I choose to cut my hair really short (almost completely off)  is because when it starts to fall out, you have hair everywhere.  It gets in your eyes, in your mouth, in your toothpaste, on your clothes, in the bed, on your towels on the computer and is really a mess.

  But this time I do not plan to go to the beautician and have my head shaved like I did last time.    I have been through this once and right now I am less willing to lose my hair than I was the first time.  I guess that means that I am much better than I was last time!  And you know I am!!

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