August 7, 2010

No Scarf Today

Posted in Beauty, Fun, Health, Life, Personal tagged Cancer, chemotherapy side-effect, Hair, ovarian cancer, regrowing hair at 12:32 am by pdxfirefly

     My hair has been slowly growing over the last 5 months and today was the first day that I actually ventured out in public without a scarf or a wig to cover my head.  So this is a milestone day for me. 

    Because my hair grows so slowly, it has taken five months for  my hair to grow long enough for me to feel OK to go in public with it uncovered.   I did babysit my grandson a few times over the last month without my turban on and I actually went out into my yard to water my plants several times (hoping that no one would see me). 

  But today was different.  I had a lot of errands to do for an upcoming trip and I thought,”Well, why not?”!  So I did.  In my excitement to ‘bare what little hair I have’, I shared this milestone day with several people whom I met while out and about today.  Their remarks encouraged me to feel much more comfortable.  We will see how tomorrow goes.

   By the way,  it took me forever to ‘fix’ my hair.   Now remember that there is almost no hair there, and I can’t believe that I spent so much time ‘fixing’ what little hair I have.  I think I was gaining courage.  For the last 16 months, I have not even looked at my hair in the mirror, but I sure checked every single angle of it today before going out.  I needed to build up my confidence.  I didn’t have to use hair spray because there isn’t enough hair to hold down!

  This is just one more step on my recovery and it feels so good.  This has given me so much hope….

    And it has driven my spirits higher than they have been in 18 months…..

Who would have thought that a little bit of standing-straight-up dark grey curly hair would have been such an uplifting thing?

PS:   My Pre-Chemo hair was very fine, very straight, and dark blond with a few (very few) grey hairs and was also highlighted.   This Post-Chemo dark grey poodle-like hair that I have is a completely different ‘look’ for me and that is the reason for my not feeling completely confident with my new look.   But don’t get me wrong,  I am so grateful to God for my physical healing and for my new hair ~~ whatever He has chosen to give me, I will gladly take!!!  But it is strange that my hair is shorter than my Son’s short hair style!

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