October 23, 2008

Where to Start???

Posted in Beauty, Life, Personal, travel tagged , , , , , , at 11:57 pm by pdxfirefly

Hello readers!   In this weblog, I’ll be sharing some thoughts on personal growth as well as some interesting tidbits.   Welcome Aboard!!!

The way my blog is set up, with the exception of this post,  the most recent entries are at the top .   One way to access the older entries is to click on a particular month in the Archives section.  There are some interesting stories in there, so be sure to take a look!  You may click on a category in the box to your right and it will bring up all posts in that category — for example- recipes or swifts.  Or… you may type a topic in the search box and that will bring up any post related to that topic — such as skin care.  For additional hints please read the page on “How to use this weblog” page at the bottom right column.

To see the beautiful video trailer for my book, TIE ONE ON, go to the TIE ONE ON Purchase page (to your right) or click on this link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oc6LXT7qZo&feature=player_embedded.

TIE ONE ON may also be ordered by going to www.teal-books.com.

And so, readers, I welcome you to Portland Firefly and I look forward to your comments.  If you do write a comment, be sure that you click on “submit” to send it to me.  I must approve all comments before they appear on the blog, so it is possible for you to send me a personal note stating that you don’t wish it to be made public.

Now, “Buckle your seatbelts for takeoff!!!”

September 17, 2008

The Story of the Tea Cup

Posted in Life, Personal, story tagged , , , , at 7:30 pm by pdxfirefly

There was a couple who went to England to shop in a beautiful antique store. They both liked antiques and pottery, and especially tea cups. On a trip to celebrate their 25th wedding anniversary they found an exceptional cup. They asked “May we see that cup? We’ve never seen a tea cup quite so beautiful.”
As the lady handed it to them, suddenly the tea cup spoke, “You don’t understand.” the cup said, “I have not always been a tea cup. There was a time when I was just a lump of red clay. My master took me and rolled me, pounded and patted me over and over, and I yelled out, ‘Don’t do that. I don’t like it! “Let me alone,’ but the potter only smiled, and gently said, “Not yet!!”

“Then, WHAM! I was placed on a spinning wheel and suddenly I was spun around and around and around. ‘Stop it! I’m getting so dizzy! I’m going to be sick!’ I screamed. But the master only nodded and said, quietly, “Not yet.” He spun me and poked and prodded and bent me out of shape to suit himself and
then…

Then he put me in the oven. I never felt such heat. I yelled and knocked and pounded at the door. ‘Help! Get me out of here!’ I could see him through the opening and I could read his lips as he shook his head from side to side, “Not yet.” When I thought I couldn’t bear it another minute, the door opened. He carefully took me out and put me on the shelf, and I began to cool. Oh, that felt so good! ‘Ah, this is much better,’ I thought.

 But, after I cooled, he picked me up and he brushed and painted me all over. The fumes were horrible.  I thought I would gag. ‘Oh, please; Stop it, Stop it!!’ I cried. He only shook his head and said. “Not yet!”. Then suddenly he put me back in to the oven.  Only it was not like the first one.  This was twice as hot and I just knew I would suffocate. I begged. I pleaded. I screamed. I cried. I was convinced I would never make it. I was ready to give up. Just then the door opened and he took me out and again placed me on the shelf, where I cooled and waited… and waited, wondering what’s he going to do to me next?

An hour later he handed me a mirror and said “Look at yourself.” And I did. I said, ‘That’s not me; That couldn’t be me. It’s beautiful… “I’m beautiful!”

 Quietly he spoke: “I want you to remember, then,” he said, “I know it hurt to be rolled and patted, but had I must left you alone, you’d have dried up.” “I know it made you dizzy to go around on the wheel, but if I had stopped, you would have crumbled.” “I know it hurt and it was hot and disagreeable in the oven, but if I hadn’t put you there, you would have cracked.” “I know the fumes were bad when I brushed and painted you all over, but if I hadn’t done that, you never would have hardened. You would not have had any color in your life. If I hadn’t put you back in that second oven, you wouldn’t have survived for long because the hardness would not have held. Now you are a finished product. Now you are what I had in mind when I first began with you.”

The moral of this story is this:
God knows what He’s doing in each of us. He is the potter, and we are His clay. He will mold us and make  us, and expose us to just enough pressures of just the right kinds that we may be made into a flawless piece of work to fulfill His good, pleasing and perfect will. 

 So when life seems hard, and you are being pounded and patted and pushed almost beyond endurance; when your world seems to be spinning out of control; when you feel like you are in a fiery furnace of trials; when life seems to “stink”, try this…
Brew a cup of your favorite tea in your prettiest tea cup, sit down and think on this story and then…
Have a little talk with the Potter.

September 9, 2008

Crystallizing Thoughts

Posted in Life, Personal, story tagged , , , at 5:16 pm by pdxfirefly

I have always been a women able to envision the possibilities not only of life, but also of homes.   And so every house that I have lived in has allowed me to make changes that created a warm loving home.   My move to PDX is no different;  and the house I purchased was bought with many changes in mind.   This last six weeks found some of those changes actually being done!   Renovations are never easy — of the house or of our hearts–but hopefully all are better after all the deconstruction and reconstruction!  I will say that my house improvements provided an unexpected means to personal renovation, if you will, that was totally unexpected and unsought.   It came gradually through the conversations with the contractor over the weeks.   A strong, solid Christian man, he & I shared thoughts on where we are in our lives today.  His observations caused me to look into past hurts deeper than I have wanted to for the last three years.   I guess those bitter Midwest winters had changed this Sunny California girl into a stoic American Gothic farmwife  who just didn’t want to face the aching pain any more.  I preferred to just go on day to day, keep aloof and not deal with everything from the past.  And actually not even moving on –just existing emotionally.   Keeping only “safe” (family) loves in my heart…ones that couldn’t hurt me too much.  Pushing away, avoiding the prospect of, and not even wanting to allow another to get close.  Unable in many ways to really get out of the deep depression of long stress even while putting up a very good front not only for others, but myself. 

Anyway, as our conversations slowly evolved over the weeks, I began to realize specific qualities that I needed to see in a man.  Prior to this, I had vague ideas of some of the desirable qualities I wanted to see, but mostly I knew what I didn’t want to see in a man.  I was able to make the distinctions that crystallized things in my own mind.   There is a big difference in knowing what you don’t want and knowing what you do want.  The difference is staggering to me.   And so, not only did the external house that I live in get changed, but my most personal house , where my life is truly lived, was changed also.     Crystal is said to be stronger and clearer if it goes through fire, is cooled, then is fired again and so on.  I am still going through the firing process and today nothing is “crystal clear” to me except that I have a long way to go.

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